After going through so much with the team, I am back to scratch again. I am feeling really regretful. Just not worth it, all the relationship that was left behind in the team. I have always been prepared to make sacrifices and to make this team work, but definitely not my friends. Doubtful of my abilities and the decisions I have made. Self-motivation don''t work anymore, it is just beyond what self-motivation could help.

If I could really turn back time, I would really have turned down the offer, I would never have wanted to forsake the relationships forged over time.

I am still trying to recollect myself from these mess. I think it is really a good time to reflect upon myself. Really grateful for the people around me all these while. This was definitely a lesson to learn from, but I just do not know whether it was too overwhelming, that I am actually cracking now.

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- Nothing is so hard, if I ever put my head in it. 
- Greatness is not define by not failing, but rising every time we fall.