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Jealousy.
jealous of why ppl can get top in class and why i cant.
jealous of how ppl can play so well but i just suck big time.
jealous of why ppl can get the post i always wanted.

Sometimes i just cant stop the thought of wanting to quit,to end something forever.
I am such a big loser.
god help me please,I am tired.

I guess nobody knows how bad is my back now.

sometimes when i have runs the pain just torturous

went to the doctor for several times alrdy,

all the doctor gave was some lotion to apply on my back or either just some painkiller.

the doctor alrdy asked me to stop playing basketball ,my mother also nag bcos of this [damn irritating]

I have to continue to go for training,hang on for one more year.

My chance of getting into the team is alrdy very slim, i cant afford to miss training