.
I AM RUNNING WITH ALL I HAVE,
but into the middle of nowhere.
Helpless.

What if i didnt get into the team?
Have i done not good enough
Maybe it is a hard fact that i cant play as well as the others
Oh god why is it happening to me again?
Stop playing around with me,it is really tiring me mentally
What possible thing that is needed to be done,is alrdy been done
So what is lacking now?
So why i am still playing so badly

Consoling me with
I have alrdy given my best,it is just a lie
I can do so much btr if i have given more?
I am lousy.suck i am really born this way?

It has been around 3years training,my play is still so..
Whenever playing match i feel so guilty,losing my ball ,pulling my team down.
Who will ever get into the state of mine?
I guess it wouldnt be long after the coach announce who will be in the team,
3more months?

dont even have the space to breathe