.
I AM RUNNING WITH ALL I HAVE,
but into the middle of nowhere.
Helpless.

What if i didnt get into the team?
Have i done not good enough
Maybe it is a hard fact that i cant play as well as the others
Oh god why is it happening to me again?
Stop playing around with me,it is really tiring me mentally
What possible thing that is needed to be done,is alrdy been done
So what is lacking now?
So why i am still playing so badly

Consoling me with
I have alrdy given my best,it is just a lie
I can do so much btr if i have given more?
I am lousy.suck i am really born this way?

It has been around 3years training,my play is still so..
Whenever playing match i feel so guilty,losing my ball ,pulling my team down.
Who will ever get into the state of mine?
I guess it wouldnt be long after the coach announce who will be in the team,
3more months?

dont even have the space to breathe

I AM REALLY SORRY I BROKE THE PROMISE WITH MY CLASS
i didnt finish the CNY decoration,or shld i say i didnt do a good job.
BLAH!Prepared to get thrown eggs by the class.
It feel really bad,its not that i dun want to do,but is the time.

WHY MUST ....
A MINUTE ONLY HAVE 60SECONDS
A HOUR ONLY HAVE 60MINUTES
A DAY ONLY 24HOURS
A WEEK ONLY 7DAYS.

Tml CNY celebration alrdy.
Tml i will also be having my reunion dinner with my FATHER family
then later early in the morning go malaysia to meet with my MOTHER family
actl if i cna make the descision i wld wish to stay in Spore to celebrate with friends.
It will definitely be more fun eh.

Pffff
Common test directly after CNY.
oh man it is not celebration but more of mugging.
Wat a time to study!

Kay just to end my post: HAPPY EARLY CNY(:

Pfffff..
EVERYTHING JUST NOT GOING IN THE EXPECTED WAY.

I have alrdy apologise for those 'pangsehing' times.
Wat else can i do ,other than apologising?
It is not on purpose btw,its all bcos i dk my training days[its so unconsistent] so sometimes i have to last minute cancel the meeting on the day. I know that you ppl are angry/irritated watever lar,but i still cant skip my training?!I felt really guilty when i have to cancel it.Do you thk i would rather go for training!?I still went to help whenever i dun have training alrdy, wat else do you want.

I am really sorry for wat happen actl but since
NOW YOU REJECTED MY CALL,SO I CAN SAY THAT YOU ALL WILL NOT NEED MY HELP ANYMORE!?YAH I THK SO.Yah thanks for no answering the call,i no longer need to be bother abt that anymore.



ARGHHHH.
1-I am not following up with the lessons.Especially maths and physics.Test coming,i am really worried!?
2-Then the class notice board design,the deadline getting closer when it is mostly not done.[hmm but i thk it is none of my business now]
3-Then in student council,blahblahblah.[small things turning out to be something big for me]
4-Then didnt get into the team for basketball.

Can i hibernate for the whole year,like what a bear does for winter.
But for me i thk i need to hibernate for the whole 2008 i guess.
Or someday sooner i am really gg crazy.

Training sucks more now.
I am the only sec3 that have to run the school compound with he sec1and2 today.The others ran lesser and at the basketball court.[FAILURE EH].Boring today didnt get to dadui or watsoever. The sun hot,and somemore had to be refree under the sun,had fun time suntanning and a great time absorbing vitamin d!?LOL..But had fun shooting,get a higher percentage in?I thk so.Today coach had chose the ppl for the cboys team,congrats to those who get into ,for those who didnt ,train hard,it will soon be your turn.

Now my training.
RUN ,LOOK AT PPL PLAY[SUNTAN],REFREEING,SHOOT,HOME.
BORING EH.

ALL THE BEST TO THOSE WHO IS IN THE BDIVISION.

I have gave up something that i spend most of my time on,but with a reason.
I am sorry to those ppl that i irritated by doing this 'stupid-but-with-a-reason' act.
SORRY.SORRY.SORRY.

Ytdy went to sch for bridging gap for duties
blah thats not my main point!Saw whch class i have been place into, class 3-1.Psss my eyes went totally red after seeing the class. Didnt want to continue to do my duty,really wanted to go home after seeing that.

Went to find teachers if there is any possible way to chge the situation.You will nvr feel wats is in me at that moment,my 2 form teacher are not in sch.Really wanted to bang the wall then get unconcious,that will be so good lah.Have to go find missKOH.All she can say is APPEAL.Why teachers are so PRACTICAL!Why they only see whats in the end but not we have dane throught he whole thg.BLAH!So what if i appeal will the teachers really take into consideration!?

I am not sad bcos of the combination i get,but the ppl inside.Really confuse of what i shld do.Went to msg missLOW to ask what shld i do.She say APPEAL.Thankyou Justin for talking to me ytdy,really appreciate what you have said to me.

Now
Shld i accept what i am given.Or just give it try,appeal!?I am really scared wat i will bcome after i get into the class.Really regretted why not studying harder this year.

It is really great seeing ppl jumping with joy after they get their desired class.Why the person is not me?

Finding somethg to lie on.

Wonder why i have such great friend
he came to apologise to me in class,because of a recent incident.But i sort of ignored him .Later when i came home somebody told me that he complain about me.BULLSHIT!You apologise to me and i thk bcos i ignored you you went to complain.I would rather not to have such a friend.I do not deserve to have such a good friend.

okay enough of stupid stuffs
today lesson were okay.PE sprinted 1 whole round.What a good feeling to have after such a long break without runs.Finally had free game again.Played basketball cos nobody seems interested in volleyball.Played a full court game.Quite a fun game i thought.Lots of fast breaks and great passes.Soon after chenghian and eileen join in,we play 7on5.No need to say we won.Later missLIM join in also.[arghhh i had stomachache]I cant play with her.HAHA

Maths
missLOW came in damn late .started doing some graphs.I was quite engross in itHAHA[this seldom happens]finish quite a few questions.HOPE THIS TIME ROUND I WILL PASS MATHS and not disapoint missLOW.I have been under performing for maths.Even i was disapointed by myself.Everytime misslow say"ni yao jiayou ah".I felt damn guilty,why didnt i study.I WILL STUDY THIS TIME ROUND I PROMISE

Recess
i wasnt happy with....I am sorry that i shout at you ppl but i really hope u ppl could chge.I could only hope wat i said you all could treat it seriously.Nxt time would dare to smuggle anymore??!

English
didnt pay much attention.COS?it is boring.Why do we have to study English and Chinese.Why cant we just communicate with sign language.THAT WILL BE SO COOL!

Geography
wasnt happy with my presentation.Have high hope in myself.But i guess i came in with little preparation.I knew wat i have to say,but i dunno how to phrase it so i sort of stammerSHIT.Iguess i will get quite a low mark for this presentation.MY PRODUCT,i did somethg different from the other grps[QUITE ARTISTIC i thought]hahaJK

Chinese
B.O.R.I.N.G.

okay i will go back to study
SCIENCE,i like science more and more

LYRICS AT THE LAST POST..


ytdy STUPIDITY ACT of me in class i guess
I can blow up with just a small matter and somemore i threw my pencilcase on the wrong person,damn hard on HER face.Really sorry for wat i have done.The pencil case flew right pass my partner's face[SCARE HER?]haha.Then i thk i must throw more,scare her more.I thk i am really really angry at that moment,i pulled back my hand to throw the thg,and i SPRAINED my back.[it's aching now]STUPID RIGHT.Didnt threw that that thg on the right person but still injure myself.

Weiyang pulled me back orelse i thk i will be at mrNur office and i thk my tie will be gone at the same time.missleong dun care abt a single thg,when this thg is going on.someone even ask for translation cos i was speaking in chinese?!?LOL. I thk i shldnt go on



ytdy,

PE was fun
played volleyball at first.One by one the boys went away.Left me,felt extra and went to play basketball.At first they were playing half court,5on4.but more and more ppl came we chge to full court.My team:ShiyaChenghianWeiyangZhiye.Love teaming with the basketball girls.haha bcos they know how to pass the ball,they work like a team.Boys solo,not fun de.HAHA shiya was marked tightly by minghow.Have lots of passings in the gameFUN.but nobody seems running in the other team,all was quite dead.My team won!I thk bcos the of fast breaks,the tall one[weiyang]cut ins,the girls shootings.NICE GAME!

English
i shld cut short
BORING,UNCOMPREHENSIVE
haha,i thk most agree with me

Geog
I need to control my temper,i could not get irritate so easily.This is my dont know how many times doing this in class le.[Haish]I thk i look more and more stupid in the sight of my classmates.Till the day when i can control my temper,it is the day when i can be a good leader,a good friend.Hope that the day really comes

Science
missJ didnt come.Had conversation on our own.ELectronics,all those stuffs lor.Weiyang damn expert in this.ZHIYE was sleeping all the way.SLEEPING PIG

EXAMS coming,homeecon test on mondayDREAAADS

UPDATED

I am growing stronger and stronger each day
Mentally ,Physically
I HAVE TO LAUGH MORE!(:

Basketball nationals are over
concentrating on studies now
Having a strong will to get into the class i wanted
I have to pass my ENGLISH[tsk]
Stop procastinating my homework
A1 and A1,A1 A1........
it is all i wanna see in my reportbook
no more B3,B4,C5........
or maybe even worst F9 for my chinese

haha....
my mother back!
no more ironing my shirt myself
haha
went airport ytdy
waited for her
bored,waited so long
finally she is out
cab back home
mama bought me lots of things
yayness
and somemore she promise me new shoes nxt week
looking forward to it
hahahahahahaha
you cant imagine how wide is my smile now

ytdy early in the morning
went for training
not training with sec2 le
jiaolian put me train with the sec1 grp
other sec2 went to train with the b'boys grp
dadui all the way with sec1
100 balls
its tired
sec1 just dun want to run
jus bored to playing with them
its just different from the sec2
told the sec1 wat to do
but they dun seem to listen
suckyness

wish it was different
just not satisfied

Arrr.....watever ppl do not wan to do
they push it to me......maybe i am nothing compared to them?!?!
Why am i always the first person to be tot abt doing all these thgs...
but the last person to be tot abt when there is gd thgs!??!
I am sorry for showing attitude when some ppl call me to do some thgs....
i do not wan to be like is tat sometimes i felt tat itis unfair
why isit always me!!!!=(
I WAN TO BE TREATED the same LIKE THE REST.....
can i?!?!?!
ppl are jus pratical i guess!??!

i have to learn to count my blessings than to thk of the unfortunate...