Tonight I want to cry.

Got to see - today. Feel the emptiness , it sucks. What actl went wrong. I could never ever return back to the past again. Why cant this feeling just die off, sometimes i just feel like ending my life. Really wish i could get more positive, but the fact is i cant. I am jealous of ppl who are in a sweet relationship. :/ Envious. I aint as happy as I look. If I had done this and never done that, maybe - . If I had know how to understand girls thoughts better,that will be so great.

Pardon me ppl. This makes me feel better :/

Hate this year alot, have no more basketball training, no more council. I miss the times.

150208. There is just too many things that will remind me of - . ITS HARD TO FORGET! REALLY IT IS HARDDDDDD!!! No matter how ppl console, it still comes back to you whether you can do it. The fact is I cant. Someday I will just breakdown.