I didnt know getting over you is so hard; not in a right state of mind

It feels terrible when everything is reminding me of you. Though it was short, it was the best memories of my life. Recollection of memories. You're happier now, and i shall refrian my silly thoughts.

As time goes, you tend to keep more things to yourself, isnt it? In the past, we will just shout everything out, hah it sounds childish, but that was how we is in the past. You refrain yourself more from sharing things kept deep inside you, you are afriad when you share, everything get leaked out, the fear is there, you aint trusting anyone anymore, even you best of friends. Misery starts to build up within you. And someday you will find you cant take it anymore. And you never know what you will actually resort to in the end.

Emptiness is all I felt. I dk why, and i dont think I need to know why. I just to find my way out of this, immediately.

Grad exam 2 isnt going so smoothly, but I am just going to do my utmost for the rest of the papers. Wish me luck :P Hah. Best of lucks to people! Yeah tml no need go school, but still have to study at home :X

Hope to get back my healthy body, my intestine is giving me alot of problem. It sucks.

I just happened to hear this song, i guess it speaks for itself. :X

Plain White T's -Lonely September

I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back

I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight

One more chance tonight
I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

And I didn't mean to meet you then
we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills
the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back '
cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

I really miss you alot, and no words could describe it