Crumble into peices;
everything seems so uncertain

STATE OF DEPRESSION
:X

History just caught me off guard, stumped by the question. I thought i was quite well prepared but i was wrong. It just got me in tears when the whole paper ended. Cos it just let me realise how unprepared I am for O'levels, everything seem crumbling down at once. Everybody though I was strong, and was a mugger, and at times take me as a benchmark, it is stess you know. And i dont seem as well manage as I seem.

Thanks banglah, my best foreign friend. Hah. Thanks for being there when I shed my tears haha. You're the best. Though I am hostile to you, being racist to you at times, you're are always being there for me. Okay I dont send you back to bangladesh alrdy, reassuring you. haha

Okay on a lighter note, though I have not studied for Physics, a single shit, I am able to do the paper, but still having some questions left blank. :P But it is already very good for me. I thk tuition is paying off, I am absorbing things off from there, so being able to the paper meant that I could apply! Haha thats a good think. I just hope that it is not because I did everything wrong so I found it okay. :/

I seriuosly need a breather, I am not a person who can sit down and mug for hours and hours. I seriously think I need some life. I am having some pact with teachers, and my msg gonna burst because I am msging them too much. I am asking teachers to force me to stay back in school to mug, and pay me some attention, give me some extra drilling so I will be able to do well for Os.

Feeling terrible this few days, I aint able to cope with the studying stress. Really! Sometimes when I go for a bathe during breaks of my studying, I find that I take longer than usual to come out of the bathroom, reluctant to get myself out of the water. I wonder if i would able to survive to O'levels. I need MORE MOTIVATION, MORE, MORE. Tml I shall play some basketball to de-stress. Hohoho.

Okay blogging is fun, it let me release my feelings. :D :D :D

Will I do well for Os ? - My biggest worry