Feeling helpless;

falling into the water, finding something to grab on

I didnt realise after my tanning, i didnt realise when i go balling after that. I was real shock to see how red I am when i took out my shirt and looked in the mirror! Damn red i tell you, my sister shouted at me when I came back home, it is that red.

Have stopped one of my tuition. I guess it was the amt of tuition I had on the weekends, that stressed me out so much? I feel so much relax now. I actl said my tuition teacher wanted to stop the tuition, but today she say she will continue teaching. Was kinda worried when she said she want to stop and was relieve when she break out the good news. It is only then i realise how dependant i was on tuition :/

Cos i ended early and the sun was bright, went for suntanning again. It is like after so many months. And maybe bcos of the long break, my body still unable to take the long tanning, it made me look damn red. Hah i like it alot.Hey there is black skin ppl, yellow skin, brown skin, white skin is there red skin? Is there a way to mantain the colour i have now? Hah really like the scroching red colour :D I tan for solid 3 hours, before i left for home

Went for balling at cck, there wasnt much ppl there, maybe bcos it is exam period? Wasnt that fun with few ppl. Argh didnt bring my socks, so played without socks, do you know how disgusting it is to play without socks? Played with michelle, hengwei and tall guy and some outsiders. Played for a couple of hours before leaving

Left with michelle . Took bus to Lot1, reach there and Michelle found her shoe bag missing. So bus back to find her shoebag. Hah she was staring opposite the road at the busstop she left her shoebag. And she was saying " Dont have right?" She was damn scared , so ran across to find. At a moment it was nowhr in sight, and i guess she gave up hope alrdy. Haha and I saved the day, i peeped into the dustbin, and pull out her shoebag! She hug it, though it was ttaken out from the dustbin. Haha , it was damn hilarious lah.

Bus back to Lot1 for our chippies, got our sausage with mash potato with our drinks. Haha we are addicted to it alrdy. Sat outside lot1 and ate. Damn shuang I tell you. Haha. And i want more goat milk, it is nice.

Tml is result day, dooms day. Dont think i will have any fabulous results. Hope teachers just dont blact at me, and dont show me the disapointed face, i hate feeling guitly :X Maybe i shouldnt go school tml.

Hah i like being red! :D