Keep on fighting;

fighting for the things you desire

Change the fact of things being impossible. Cos nothing cant be accomplish if there is determination. Find the motivation, and that will what that will propel you forward to sucess. At times you may just feel lost, you may just find things getting out of control, you cant see the meaning in doing some things (the things you are always doing) - then it is the time you give yourself a break, a nice long break. :) Come back when you think you have cleared your mind. A refresh mind, makes everything more efficient. Dont ever give up on things, thats a loser act.

So it was school till 1215, and I came home to sleep before the mock emaths test. Apparently, i overslept, and hour late, called Mr Woon, he ask me to stay at home instead. Haha i escaped mock test, a meaningless one. We wasnt given anytime to revise, and i doubt ppl gave their test in doing. So whats the meaning of a test, when ppl are just any oh how spamming answers? Teacher have no brain, you cant blame them . Authority just blinds one. The top cant sees the suffering of whats under them.

Went to ball at CCK in the evening. Hah it was most fun. I like the competition there. Hah i dont like to play with pros. Played at 514 first then ltr limbang park. Played all the way till 10 plus, and i thought it was still 9. :P

Haven eat my dinner lah, but no choice all the shops closed. Just got myself bubble tea and mash potato from 7-11. Now my stomach feels funny. Darn it. Hah still not sleeping, watch Survivor-Samoa. I am a fan of Survivor, but not once i get to finish watching, cos of the ffff timing, that always changes, always getting later.

Alright shall 'abstain' myself from revising Chemistry. Hah addicted. All the best to ppl having EOYS. and ppl studying for Os-study hard.Hope I have helped some to destress with my post :D

Ppl have cool studying tips? Tag and share alright? Let my tagboard be a more meaningful one. Got comments on my posts, maybe on what to blog, hah i am open to comments.Any songs recommendation also can. Hah maybe i should post some maths formula huh?

And recently, my classmates say that I looked like the ugly sesame charactor (maybe not ugly but special looking :P) Haha. Just liked to be different, And thats me. Lol

I admire Avril lavign, hah a fan of hers. Such a talented singer, that have a unique voice and singing style, and she cant make her song so emotional in some way. Avril lavign-together

Feeling helpless;

falling into the water, finding something to grab on

I didnt realise after my tanning, i didnt realise when i go balling after that. I was real shock to see how red I am when i took out my shirt and looked in the mirror! Damn red i tell you, my sister shouted at me when I came back home, it is that red.

Have stopped one of my tuition. I guess it was the amt of tuition I had on the weekends, that stressed me out so much? I feel so much relax now. I actl said my tuition teacher wanted to stop the tuition, but today she say she will continue teaching. Was kinda worried when she said she want to stop and was relieve when she break out the good news. It is only then i realise how dependant i was on tuition :/

Cos i ended early and the sun was bright, went for suntanning again. It is like after so many months. And maybe bcos of the long break, my body still unable to take the long tanning, it made me look damn red. Hah i like it alot.Hey there is black skin ppl, yellow skin, brown skin, white skin is there red skin? Is there a way to mantain the colour i have now? Hah really like the scroching red colour :D I tan for solid 3 hours, before i left for home

Went for balling at cck, there wasnt much ppl there, maybe bcos it is exam period? Wasnt that fun with few ppl. Argh didnt bring my socks, so played without socks, do you know how disgusting it is to play without socks? Played with michelle, hengwei and tall guy and some outsiders. Played for a couple of hours before leaving

Left with michelle . Took bus to Lot1, reach there and Michelle found her shoe bag missing. So bus back to find her shoebag. Hah she was staring opposite the road at the busstop she left her shoebag. And she was saying " Dont have right?" She was damn scared , so ran across to find. At a moment it was nowhr in sight, and i guess she gave up hope alrdy. Haha and I saved the day, i peeped into the dustbin, and pull out her shoebag! She hug it, though it was ttaken out from the dustbin. Haha , it was damn hilarious lah.

Bus back to Lot1 for our chippies, got our sausage with mash potato with our drinks. Haha we are addicted to it alrdy. Sat outside lot1 and ate. Damn shuang I tell you. Haha. And i want more goat milk, it is nice.

Tml is result day, dooms day. Dont think i will have any fabulous results. Hope teachers just dont blact at me, and dont show me the disapointed face, i hate feeling guitly :X Maybe i shouldnt go school tml.

Hah i like being red! :D

If loving you was wrong, I wish to be wrong forever ;

Haha, tml is the last paper. How great could it be, after 3 weeks of torture. Studying for tml paper, doing some practice papers .

Had fun balling ytdy with the same people. Glad that I was able to control myself ytdy. Everything will just go real wrong when I lose it all. I find no sense to play with strong ppl, since you are thr to have fun :X Fustrations tends to build up when you play with them. But had fun time ytdy, nice time sweating. Hah i like the feeling after a night of balling, you're just to tired to think about anything else, but just want to sleep.

When I am stress I like running aimlessly on the court . The stress comes out as the sweat, i feel so much better after that. Hah thats my remedy to relieving of stress.

Okay there is no other alternative then to studying, so lets just enjoys the process. Do not stress yourself out too much, set some expectations so it acts as a motivation to yourself. Studying is fun, studying is fulling, I shall get myself all set to finish my last leap to O's. My academics may not be the top few, but I am not doing for the score but for myself. So yes, JUST DO IT!

After a few months without training, I have seen the effect. :/ My stomach is buldging out, got to get some workout -maybe some running at my free time, some situps. Controlling diet is not for me, I cant do without good food. Haha. Have not been suntanning this few days, cos of the weather cos of the insufficient time. Will go soon.

hah my average blog visits have rose to 80 people a day. cool shit.

Boon and Bane

Great day out. Shyt lar, I thk because I ate a coffee cake at night, it gave me a sleepless night. Took panadol, but still only slept at 3 plus am. Then wake up like 4 hours later for lesson. Went to school to seek divine help from Miss Lappen, hah i am btr after that session.

Went back home to rest for awhile, damn tired lah, but didnt fall asleep. Travel all the way to queensway to find balls and jersey. Yeah yeah, i finally got a new ball! Spend 50 bucks on that, then buy a jersey got discount, nike one, i thk is nice lar, another 30 bucks.See alot of ppl there, basketball girls and some primary school friends. Hah hot spot. I dk if it is real anot lar, but the ball actl got a price tag of 80 bucks but i got it at 50bucks, felt really happy, but if it is really fake I dotn wish to know lar. Haha

I dont like gg to that place, al the exit seemed the same, i dont know how to get out of the place lah, i actl walk rounds and rounds and found myself back the same spot. -.- Pissed. And after i got out of the place, like finally, i found that i dk whr to take bus from, paced up and down to find the bus. Like a retard!

MRTed to cck, met michelle -the low fat goat milk. Lol, we went to yewtee mall to get some goat milk, hah first time i drank goat's milk, how cool is that . It taste quite unique but quite ncie actl. Haha but still cow's milk better, esp those high fat one. :P Bus our way to hengwei's house, to play some ball. He was damn late, and he send me those disgusting msges, felt like kicking his ass, moreover he didnt bring his aiai.

Hah baling was real fun with hengwei michelle and hengwei's friend (esp Xibeng) Finally i know who is he. Lol.He is a joker bodoh. Played from 4 plus to 9 , solid 5hours, fun ley. Lets play again after prelim 2, i like the ppl over there.

Went home with michelle, bought chippies again plus peach greentea ate outside Lot1, damn shiok I tell you. Talk crap outside, hah i seldom find someone I can talk so long, greta time talking. MRTed home back myself.

Enjoyed myself alot today, really want to play there again soon. Lots of laughters, and finally killed my itchyness on my hands. Haha. Thanks for the day low fat goat milk and hengwei. (:

Woohoo tml gg out with clique again, for mushroom pot and a 5 minute movie as what agnes claim. Haha looking forward. It will be at night, so i will study before that!

PUTTING YOUR GUARDS DOWN

Great day balling. Enough playing already i guess, time to get serious on studies. H1N1 is getting serious, will school close longer? Then longer holiday. Sigh, i hope it happens.

So went tanning early in the morning. The sunburnt is ugly so decided if gg for a suntan will help me get back my even tone. But today dont seemed to be a good day for tanning, so went back after 2hours. Recieve the msg that Michelle will be balling, so rush back home, get all my basketball gears, and cab down right away

The court is hard to find, so went to find michelle and sylvia instead. Hengwei and Danny come after that. There was bengs thr, didnt play for long thr. Shyt i shouldnt have wore a shirt with my name on. -.-

Went to Hengwei house thr to play, it was fun. The ppl thr was friendly, played super long . Played till late night 9pm and went back home. Yeah got my chippies, jollibeam, Pie Kia for dinner. (: Ball again next time.

BROKEN PROMISE

Days going good for me, holidays still holidays, isnt what i thought- hardcore studying. Haha time isnt right isnt it? Doing the same things for holidays, got more time to suntan actl, still got tuition, lesson for today and tml, balling. Yeah great fun these 2 days, night balling.

Ytdy balled in the evening with the justin, nicholas, weijin, jiawei, randy, bryan, joey. Play with a airless ball at first, waiting for the pump to arrive, joke to play with an airless ball. Balled till late night, totally burn out.

Today lessons was short till 1230 only. Went home to bathe quickly and went to meet krystal, deloras, shihui for Pizzahut. Haha just bcos we are having the crave. Hilarious moments, shihui was putting the coke into her bottle cos we have free refill. Vanessa came after that with Siewhoon, haha she told the waitress, i dont want spaghetti i want pasta. The waitress replied, errrr pasta is spaghetti so what you want? Hahahahaha. joke of the day. Ate and went JW stadium to play volleyball.

Sorry abandoned you guys, went to play basketball with the boys- weijian, filbert, jiawei, zhengming, melvin, randy, weijin. Great games. Play again some other time (:

These few days had been watching 金石良缘 , great show. The the love relationship that the main actor was the relationship all would want to have i believe. The show had just ended , the last episode alrdy. Sigh, but still glad that i manage to get home on time to catch it. Got to study for SS test tml, shyt man. Looking forward to up coming wednesday, meeting up with the clique after such a long time, hope everyone can make it (cross fingers). Excited (:

How i want to have someone by my side to go through the whole journey with me, someone who would understand me, someone who would forgive me for whatever mistake i make - my wish . Its hard i guess. Nah its just a wish, i know it hard to happen

COURAGE

Congrats to all who got into the C'div team both to the girls and to the boys. After so long of hard work, some of you finally got what you wanted. Those who didnt make it to the cut, there is always a next time. (:

Ytdy night balling, balled with the usuals. Got treated with a elbow on my nose, my tears nearly rolled down. It was super pain, a pain that you can never imagine. Changed courts to play cos thr was too many ppl thr. My shooting was lousy ytdy but it will get btr.

Today, drag myself out of my bed, extremely tired. Went to Mcdonalds for breakfast, and then to school for training. 5rounds of school compound, but i went for a 6 in the end. The feeling of running came, and i didnt stop through out, and i wasnt tired at the end. I got bird shitted on me, and if a person got bird shit he/she have bad luck. So yeah indeed it was true, dislocated my feet while playing ball. Super pain , got myself to the ground, at that time i still do not i have dislocated my foot. Cos i can still walk pretty fine, i went to play again, slowly it got worse. After training, got back home and after that go and cut hair and went to see doctor.

I went back to whr marcus cut his hair, cos i thk it was quite nice. Damn i got a stupid china guy, who doesnt understand english. When i tell , the back cut overlap, he tell me push your hair up?
[in chinese] I was super irritated when he dont understand a single thing i says. I hair now c.m.i.

Ltr chiong down to see the doctor for my leg, now understand the reason for lucas groans at that place when he sprained his feet. Haha i still rmb the moment , it was super hilarious. So nobody was kind enough to accompany me thr. Lol. I went myself, when weijian called me, i was "arghhh, very pain" Lol cos it was too pain that i can say anything to him on the phone. Then the person went to pull my feet down,then ltr push it back up quickly. I only feel a stinging pain and "cluck..cluck! " . The doctor told me my feet was dislocated. -.-

After my feet was done, i bused down to Siying house, for her birthday celebration. Sorry huh, made everybody wait for me. Soon after, we had steamboat. When we was talking about the pick-up lines, haha everybody cant stop but laugh. Ltr we went on to play game of LIFE on the computer, lol "champion"-weijian got "champion. Haha fun day today

It just take some time. Be patient.

Tuition marathon ytdy, it was damn tiring for me. 6 solid hours, imagine it. Woke up early though i only slept at 1am the previous night. Prepare for tuition at 10am. Chemistry, Physics. So it was 10am to 2.15pm alrdy. Quickly got back home to take a nap cos i know i cant take it alrdy, i need some sleep. Got back home its alrdy 2.30pm. Tsk dont care still went to sleep. Woke up 30minutes ltr, it was hard to crawl out from the bed. Actl i thought of just skipping it, but my mum didnt allow, so went. -.- A-maths tuition 3-5pm . My eyes was about to close ey.

Wanted to go back home to rest, but my parent got me out to godma house for dinner. Went home to chge and went down strght. haha receive hongbaos from relatives, hahaha. Had dinner and went out balling

Went for balling though i know that my homework was not even 1% done . You know ?To release stress. heeehe. So same ppl, maryann,julia,marcus, and number10. Balled till late at night 11pm? Then went home sweet home.

I have always wanted to say the 3 words to you, but i thk we still need more time to know each other? Lets wait. (:

Il aime Lizard :)
haha lol. I have never understand how's the feeling of loving someone till now.

Haha school today passes very fast. I think it was bcos Mr Woon was not in school, so we missed 2hours of maths , which means we left with 2hours of actual lesson. Talking cock with cassandra, krystal and shawn, then ltr played bingo. Damn it i have never win, only till the last two game i won. We was to draw out 5 columns of 5rows then fill in 25 numbers in ramdom order, it will go round, everybody is to say out a number. So to win you have to form 5 lines. In the last few games we decided to exchange the paper, haha so mine should be pass to cassandra, haha so i sabo her, i drew it super small. Haha lol. Then the second time, i didnt wrote '5' but i wrote '26' so when someone shouted 5 she was asking why she cant find, then ltr i joked with her why her paper have '26'. Lol

Shawn then ask us to find a cat in the 2 dollar note, indeed thr was. Ppl try finding it in your 2dollar note, if you have found tell me. Haha it just mean that you are suoer clever. And can you find the SMALLEST word in the 2dollar note? it is not the word yusof ishak btw, it is way too big then the smallest so try finding. And can you find a old man holding a walking stick? all these things could be found in a 2dollar note, so ppl once you got the time take out a 2dollar note you have and try finding. Haha

English, haha. Got back Compo test result. It was considered good for me. Several ppl failed the paper and will most probably be banded, but dont be disheartened thr is always next time. Mdm priya marked really strict this time round, so the highest as only 19/30 , i got 16/30. And i got a NOT BAD[comment] given by Mdm Priya, it isnt easy to get such a comment from Mdm Priya actl, so i was pretty glad though i only got 16. She said that my story was creative ey, haha. Next time i will try to do btr.

Ohh Physics, i was sleeping through out. So i knew nothing. Pssss.. i cannot sleep anymroe from the first lesson of Mr Ng i am sleeping till now. I knew nothing about what he teach, not a single thing and common test is coming up in 2 weeks time. -.-

After school had training, train for awhile and went to suppor girls match. The result was disapointing. But i thk thy have alrdy give it their best, nobody wished for that ending. Dont be discourage B'girls thr is still a next match. All the best for the next B'boys and B'girls match.(:

In the evening , went to ball at marcus house with maryann,jiawen,julia,marcus and co. Thr was a fat guy who love to act so much, love to give elbows, and is so smelly, that we play with. For two match we played with him, we won both. Haha , after that nobody wants to play with him alrdy. Haha everybody shoot damn accurately, burn him like siao. Lol. Heeee shall ball another day, it will be fun. (:

NEVER BE AFRAID TO LOSE, BUT TO FEAR OF NOT GIVING YOUR BEST
it is when you dare to lose, you'll be able to get forward.

Night basketball ytdy, had a fun time. I was the first to reach though i walk there -.- Who was thr? Clement, Marcus, Siying, Maryann, Jiawen, sorry to the other 4 i forgot your name. My name was , hyper active? Thats what they call me, lol.

Thr was a ex-jurong player. She was damn good, though she wasnt that tall, her shooting percentage was high and her reverse hook shot are just too nice. Had lots of laughs, ppl falling, ppl having mispasses.

The feeling of sweating just great . Hope to go and play with them another day. Haha though i know that i haven study for my test today i still went. So i came home ard 10plus and studied till around 12.

Then i thk bcos i didnt have enough rest i couldnt thk properly when i see the paper. ): I thk i am going to flunk that paper. Shyt ey.

Make your presence felt (:

JEALOUSY BLINDS PEOPLE'S EYES,
it may make you misjudge someones actions

Went for Jurong game against Queenstown at CCAB, I didnt play just went thr to see if they need my help. Not referee this time round, score and time keeper boredom -.- They played four quarters, 3quarters 20minutes , last quarter 10minutes, 70 minutes in total. Wow thats alot with only 12players, maybe 11 at the last quarter lucas injured himself.Hey takecare of yourself, rest well season coming. So after the game, helped lucas in hopping his way to a taxi with wenjie,actl i didnt want to go with them, cos still early.I was his walking stick all the way, thr is service charge one ey, lucas. But nvm, got free taxi, okaay i am cheapskate.Lol

Reached Jurong East, the 'tui na' place. Laughing at Lucas reaction. "Pain arghhhh, pain, uncle can rest for awhile anot? " Saw basketball girls thr, they having lunch i dk? So lucas will have to rest for ard 1week, he have to survive with no basketball this few days.

In the evening went to play basketball. Played with Andrea,Weijian ,Siying,Clovis Marcus,Clement . It was really fun and hilarious. I didnt emo but just didnt talk bcos of some reasons ey. Haha. Super tiring, balling for 4hours straight, games after games. Went for dinner after that.Clement and Siying leave first, Clovis left with his bike [go chase the bus?! haha lol], then me an weijian send andrea home first before we leave.

Shall ball again next time? (: