AM. I. OKAY. ?
traumas

Tired on putting a fake front. You know the feeling, when you have alot of things kept inside, troubled, but you just cant let it out, bcos you would let the ppl ard worry for you? Esp my parents. I guess it is the time to get more sensible and to bear the consequences of mhy doings, and not let my parents decide for me (worry for me) - but this transition is really hard.

This whole week have been basketball basketball and basketball again. I dont thk i can get into JJC with basketball, too lousy. I am just trying, working on the little chance that i am having now. Tml would be my first training with their team, hope everything goes well. :/ Real scared. Fear of not getting into a good school

On a lighter note:
NBA game just ended. Cleveland against Jazz. Woohoo. Jazz wins. Not that I support Jazz, but maybe I like teams that work and earn points tghr as a team, teamplays :D Basketball is beautiful with teamplays, not by star players. Star players just increase the number of spectators watching, the tickets sold. If you haven realise, whenever Cleveland is losing, the ball would (majority of the time) be on Lebron's hands, he have become the forward, the center, the controller. Yes he really can turn games over, but still , not nice :P

For the first 3 quarters, it was cleveland leading, in the mid fourth quarter, Jazz led with 12points. On the last 4 minutes of the game, Cleveland was losing by 10, ball went over to Lebron and Lebron and Lebron again . And of course he gave back Cleveland a 5 points lead. Last minute was really interesting, with Jazz making big shots and minimizing the 5 points deficit to just 1 point. With D.William( out with injury on the 2nd quarter) and Boozer (fouled out on the 4th), Jazz put down their rookie Gaines, with a contract of only 10 days, joke, but true, and some of their main players. They left with 5 seconds, time was ticking, ball was passed to Gaines, he shoots, and scored, a 3! Jazz won by 2. Great game played!

Later going out with clique to celebrate Weijian birthday, haha quite late huh? Mushroom pot. :D

Just cant turn away;
its reality.

What's life if there isn't working and only playing
What's life if there was only happy and no sad
What's life if there was only me and no you
Everything would be so meaningless.

Some things is troubling me all this while. Maybe only just 2. One for which is really personal that i shall not share, and I only told it to one person. The other one was just about friends, having some problems. There is 2 options to walk away from the group, and let time be the solution. Or to stay ignorant to all these things that is happening. I guess i would go for the first option. It is not good to have hatred multiplying within you, but I just cant help it, but to hate that person.

All this while I had been doing my shopping, orchard is not a place for me, it is a maze! But thanks to yong and agnes I found my way out, haha i actl called for their help. :P Apparently i finish all the shops that town has. Ion, Far East, Isetan, Wheelock, Borders, Vivocity, Cineleisure, Heerens. 6 hours of shpping non-stop. Spend abt 140 bucks on a bag, 150 bucks on topman, 10 bucks on accessories, 50 bucks on some other stuffs. I spend alot :P Feeling bad, I shall work more to eanr it back.

Yeah! I got topman membership. And just want to say, their service at topman is really really good. despite me being so irritating, having to tried almost every piece of apparels they have, and not buying, they still serve me patiently. I am not that bad actl, i still buy eventually, and even spend 150 bucks lah!

My next destination wold be bugis and queensway and i shall end my shopping quest. It is really shiok to spend money, use your card. Buttttt ltr when you know you have to work to earn back the money, the feelign sucks.

Okay my new year resolutions (comfirmed one), I shall keep the list short, so that I can really adhere to.
1. Be vulgarities free, big challenge but i am willing to do anything to get rid of this really bad habit.
2. No cab unless really, really and really lost
3. No throwing anger on anyone, esp family. Yes I have to learn to seek for solution, be patient, control my emotion.
4. I got this, inspired by clem and sy, i thought was pretty good, to save my first 2000 bucks in bank.
Alright I shall keep it at 4. That will be good. :D

Tml there is 4/3 class gathering @ sentosa, if i can wake up most probably i will go. I actl specially take leave so i can go out wiht them. But i dk, cos it is alrdy 3 am now. see how tml.