A tumour in the heart;
cant be seen, but it is producing the pain

Humanities are killers. Social studies, geography and history. Alot of memerising need to be done. Psst, I seem like some mad talking to myself. Hah i guess everyone is doing the same? Social studies is crap, medisave, medisave, do we really have to know whats that? Give us money we will settle our own medical cost lar. Lol

Will revise some chemistry later on before tuition tml. Asked tuition teacher for the hardest paper. :P Maybe a Amaths paper also. :D Monday would be social studies and chemistry. Hope I wil just do fine. Tuesday would be Geography and Mathematics. Got to work harder in order to get a distinction.

Did you know on thursday my blog have 100visits? Haha just happen to know it. And my blog have an average of 74 visitors. But I kind of know why ppl visit my blog -.- is alll bcos of the links. Hah nvm, I will add more links if I could find any. Hah I AM GOOD :D

Ytdy went studying with siying. I wonder which retard can get mixed up with jurong green and jurong spring mac? Haha. Lol. So i bused to Jurong green then ltr found out it was actl Jurong spring. Haha. Did physics and Geography, quite fruitful. Hah study again tghr next time. Having the sudden urge to play ball again! Okay shall not fall into the clutches of temptation. RESIST!RESIST!

If I could ever rewind back the time, I would want to be with you again. I would not be so foolish to let go of you and hurt you once more. But i guess nothing could be reverted back.
Let it go.

Slowly. Controlling. Restricting.

Get into sleep only at ard 2am. My 2am equals to other ppl 4am. I seldom sleep so late, I just cant get myself to sleep. Flip and turn on my bed, and eventually became tired.

Slowly getting back to my normal self. Using studies to numb myself, blasting music exceptionally loud. Hah this can actl stop me from thinking of other things. I dont believe one can forget abt something so quickly? So I time will be the remedy!

Lesson is extremely long today, and i didnt sleep early the previous night. Thought today i am gg to fall dead in class. Manage to get through the lessons without sleeping, but i was pratically day dreaming for almost an hour during English.

Today lesson wasnt that boring, chemistry we had to carry out our experiment we made. Haha i made a mess on my bench. I guess i wasnt a good bench partner, i was stealing things from gladwin. Not stealing lar, i did ask. He is good to borrow me the things. In the end he had to get the things himself again. Haha.

Feeling the sense of urgency for physics already. I started doing assesments, and asking question for physics. Yes! Finally i am getting back on track.

Recess didnt eat much again, the food isnt nice, and i have no appetite. Treat as a diet (: I am gettng fatter each day

English for the last 2 hours. Just when the lesson was about to start, i was almost falling asleep. But Mdm Priya is funny. Haha. She said this sentence " Stephanie, you thk you funny? Ey it rhymes " and everybody laughs. Today was all about speech writing. At last something diff from report wrting , compo, compre.

Self-study have started. Stayed back till 4pm to self study. Did physics. I finish a 100 questions, it wasnt easy by the way.

It's weird why I could only feel it now. :/

Painful. Jealous. Misery. Regrets. Empty.

just hoping for a place to cry it all out. I aint that strong afterall.